My Letters to God

If you know me, you know that I like to write. It's how I sort everything. I write lists on my sticky notes, letters to my friends and of course, in my journal. Several years ago, I started journaling. My journals are like a collection of letters to God with my thoughts, prayers and praises. And right before I started college, I threw my first journal away. I didn't like looking back, so I decided to pretend like it never happened by tossing it. But now, I wish that I could look back at it... to see how much I have changed since then.

And only a few days ago, I wrote in the last page of the journal I started at the beginning of my first year at Fox. And as I "signed" that last letter to God, I couldn't help but smile because I'm never going to throw this one away. I like flipping through the pages now. Even looking back to exactly one year ago, I am simply amazed at how much God has blessed and taught me. Sometimes when I look at it now, I have no idea what I was thinking. It kinda makes me laugh. But still, that's what it took to get me here. On the way to getting here, a few friends came and left, I received my first B, I got minor surgery and I was more confused about what God was trying to do in my life than ever. But more importantly, I was reminded how blessed I am now. God has given me a family who loves me and who has stayed together and He's blessed me with some friendships that I never expected to have. And now, I have a somewhat clearer picture about what He wants me to do. Well, just a little clearer. But, I have grown so much and this journal right here is a testament to that. Just as I closed this book, I have closed yet another chapter.

All things really do work together for my good :)

So now, I'm starting a new journal and entering a better part of my life. I am excited to see what He has for me. I know there will be struggles, as always, but it's those hard times that help me grow. Everything does happen for a reason. Looking back and as cliché as it sounds, I can finally see how some things were supposed to fall apart so that they could fall into a better place... which is right now!