How did it even happen?

I find myself asking this question over and over. Today, I just couldn't get over what all happened this past year and a half... they were things that I wish never happened. Because of all of it, I experienced more pain and brokenness than I had ever felt in my entire life. I kept looking back at how I met all the people in my life. And I read my journal from this past year, I prayed to God for certain things. And of course, the opposite happened and I was heartbroken. There are so many times where I just want to be bitter and mad at God for letting these things happen. But, I know I can't. He allowed it to happen to teach me and to make me stronger. And I can most definitely say that I have learned and I am continually striving to be a better person. I may never fully know why he allowed it to happen... but, I have to trust that He will use it for my good.